New Year's Eve....Daniel and 7 of the children went to a New Year's Eve service at church. Abigail stayed home with me and the 3 littles ones. The dial up connection here seems to be a bit faster tonight, so I thought I'd try to blog and give an update.
It has been a tough week. And today was a really hard day. Sometimes the rain comes and sometimes it pours. And I continually remind myself that as the trials fall, so much more abundantly does God's grace.
I walked into my doctor's appt. today with a heavy heart. As I sat in the waiting room awaiting my turn, I silently talked to the Lord as I know He tells us to cast all our cares upon Him for He careth for us (I Peter 5:7). But in reality, when my name was called to see the doctor, I was still carrying many burdens myself.
I felt like I was on the verge of tears and just quietly listened to the doctor as he talked and answered any questions he asked. He ordered me more blood tests and told me that I need to get down to Sacramento to get a Level II ultrasound ASAP. As he helped me up from the exam table he said, "Jaynee, I am scared...I am really scared. I don't say this to my patients...I think I've only said this a couple times in my entire medical career." I told him that I wasn't scared and assured him that I really do understand how serious and complicated this pregnancy is. But I know and rest in the very God who is forming this precious baby boy inside me.
Daniel had the children but was unable to come pick me up right away as he was dealing with some vehicle difficulties, so I walked down to the next building to have my blood drawn. The plan for the day was to go home after my appt. so the children could work on their school, take a good long nap, and then get ready to attend the special New Year's Eve Church service. But due to more unexpected vehicle difficulties, we didn't get home until after 6 pm.
So while I really wanted us to all be together this evening, I knew that #1- the little ones had been in the car ALL day with no naps and were very over tired and #2- the older ones were very excited about going to church after being in the car ALL day too. So I stayed home with some and Daniel left with the others.
We ate supper, and I held Eliseo while laughing as I watched Abigail play hide and seek with Susannah and Nehemiah (Nehemiah always runs a few feet and covers his face with his hands thinking nobody will be able to see him :) ). We did baths, pj's, teeth, story, song and prayer time, and then the house seemed lonely and much too quiet! But it's given me some quiet time to again go to the Lord...and how He strengthens our heart as we wait on Him. Waiting can be so hard, yet it is such a simple thing He asks.
I cannot say thank you enough for your prayers. May I share a few specifics on my heart tonight for which we covet your prayers?
*Mommy and Baby- little guy is doing great; I'm 22 1/2 weeks along now.
*Continued wisdom especially for Daniel and the doctors
*Housing- we are needing to find a home to rent SOON
*Family health- we have all been struggling with winter head/chest colds since we've been up here in this WONDERFUL cold weather! :)
*Working out vehicle problems
*For our brothers/sisters in Christ in our church in Mexico; that Daniel would be able to go down to spend some time with them soon
*Just that the Lord would encourage my heart as it is hard being away from "home", routine, ect... that we would be able to settle in as best as possible under the circumstances
As I look back over 2008, I am truly amazed at the Lord's love and mercy in my life. I can see His hand so clearly; His tender loving care so gently protecting, leading, and sustaining us. Oh, He is so faithful and so good. May His wonderful love fill your hearts each day throughout the New Year.