Daniel's brother Samuel just got married this past weekend. He's the brother who came down to serve in the ministry here for several months. I was super excited to see pictures from the wedding. They were beautiful of course. And then I got to see the faces of some of the people whom I love the most in this world...my brothers and sisters in laws, my neices and nephews...and I kept going back and forth between smiling and crying. If Daniel were home and saw me, he would say, "You are such a woman!" :-)
Sometimes I miss everyone soooooo much! I love the people here; I can't begin to write down how thankful I am to have been able to be a small part of seeing a church here spring up where Satan before had complete control; what my heart feels to see those dear brothers and sisters in Christ learning, growing, and being changed by the Lord I cannot express; I am so thankful to be married to a man who is not ashamed of the gospel of Christ and is willing to give his all to bring that glorious hope to those who have none.
I know this is where God has called us and there is really no other place I would rather be than in the this. And it feels more and more like home to me. What was before brought so much fear and uncertainty is sweetly familiar to me now.
But sometimes I miss our home so much...I miss our family. I miss our friends in the states. I miss being there for their birthdays, weddings, or any other holiday.
I miss stopping by a sister in laws house for the afternoon to visit and watch our children play. I miss being able to go to a store and buy the children some school supplies or new socks. And while so much of that is good as I love living simply and God is always so good to supply our every need, sometimes I just miss home. I sometimes feel that life goes on without us up north and it feels lonely and I just miss it. I miss taking the children to a grassy park to play or camping with our family or taking the children fishing. Tonight, I miss my homeland.
Sigh...and then I feel badly for feeling this way (again, I see my husbands smile and hear him saying, "Women!" :) ).
So while sometimes my heart is home sick, I do what I tell the children to do when their heart hurts. Tell it to Jesus. Know He loves us so much and understands like no other. He never leaves us!
Today is Benjamin's 10th birthday! Daniel and some of the children went out to San Carlos with some others from our church to see Brother Juan, but they are planning on being back later tonight, so we'll have cake and celebrate! You will never guess what he wanted for his b'day...a turtle. And I was sooo happy that they still had some at vet clinic. It is really the cutest little thing! And with the little bowl and food we bought, the total cost was only $15! He loves to eat! He'll fit in great here! And apparently, in 5 years, they get to be about the size of a pancake. Benjamin is very creative...he already named this little pet...his name is "Ben". Wonder if a turtle can learn its name and if both he and my Ben will come running when I call. :-)