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A glimpse into the life of Daniel and Jaynee Lockwood and their 12 precious blessings. Thank you for visiting; we pray that what we share here may always bring glory to our wonderful God and Saviour. May you praise the Lord with us for the great things He has done and continues to do as we serve Him sharing the gospel here in the little town of Cuidad Insurgentes, BCS Mexico. He alone is good and faithful!

Monday, April 21, 2014

Hardest post I have ever had to publish

This morning, my husband sent out the following letter:


Dear Supporters and Friends,

     It is with great regret and sorrow that I write this letter to inform you of a personal moral failure.  I have confessed my sin to my pastor and after prayer and fasting, my pastor and the deacon board at our sending church have decided to remove me from the ministry immediately.  I am very saddened over the grief and damage I have caused to my wife, children, my church in Mexico, our supporters in the states, and the church at large.  I know I have disappointed many who have invested into our lives and ministry.

     My pastor and church have given me three months to transition from Mexico to the United States and to find a Mexican pastor to take over the ministry here.  Please pray for our family and church as we make this difficult transition.  We covet your prayers. Our family is so very grateful for the many years of support, generosity, prayers, and sacrifice.  

In Christ,
Daniel Lockwood


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     Words fail me, but our God never fails.  Our hearts are broken, the grief is immense, but His grace is sufficient.  

     Thank you for your years of love, support, encouragement and care for our family and the people here.  Please continue to pray for us.  We need your prayers now more than ever.  

     God is so faithful and so good.    

72 comments:

  1. My love to you, Jaynee. You and your family are in my daily prayers. I emailed you:-)
    Love,
    Cathy Miller

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  2. Upholding you in prayer! We will continue to pray for your family and for wisdom in choosing the right Pastor for the
    Church there in Mexico. You know words fail me too. Love you, Friend.

    I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.
    (Psalms 121:1-3)

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  3. We will pray for each of you.
    With much love, Katie in NY(was Katie in Maryland)

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  4. I have been following your blog for years and praying for you, but have never commented. We are a home school family in Southern California and have served on short term mission trips in Baja. I wish I had let you know before today what a blessing your blog and servant hearts have been to me. But now, I just wanted to let you know that I will continue to be praying for all of you! Satan loves nothing more than to destroy families and Christians' credibility, but God can take repenting hearts and turn ashes to beauty! Cling to Him (as I'm sure you are!) and know that you have people like me that are standing in the gap for you and believing that God will redeem even this time and your beautiful family will come out stronger and continue to be used for His glory! (If you feel it's appropriate, I hope you will blog from time to time to let us know how you all are doing!)

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  5. I am so, so sorry Mrs. Jaynee. Praying for you and your family as ya'll go through this trial. God IS faithful and so good.

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  6. I am so sorry for your sorrow. You will all be in my prayers. Hold God close.

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  7. We love you guys, and are praying for you!

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  8. My heart breaks for your entire family. Praying for complete healing for each of you and for a smooth transition as your lives move in a new direction.
    Kandi in AZ

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  9. Daniel, Jayne and all the kids, I pray that you grow and flourish back in the States.

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  10. I'm so very sorry to read this. I'm sure the heartache I feel is nothing compared to yours, Jaynee. Praying for you all with love ~ and trust for God's grace to be evident in your lives.
    ~melanie

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  11. I'm so sorry for your troubles

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  12. Because we are sisters and brothers in the Body of Christ, I am grieved and saddened with you. Praying God's mercy on all of you.

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  13. I am praying for your family. You have been such a big encouragement and blessing to me, may God heal you all during this time. Lisa

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  14. Dear Jaynee and Daniel,
    Our hearts break for you. Be assured of our continued prayers for you and your dear family.
    Love in Him,
    Steph and Tim

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  15. You are loved {{hugs}} praying for you ♥

    ~Cinnamon

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  16. I am praying for you! For I know and understand! God will never leave you and he is always there even when you feel he is not! My prayers are with you!! You don't know me, but I want you to know that I will pray and pray hard for all of you! " For where your heart is, there your treasure will be also! familytreasuresforeternity!!! PRAYING!!!

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  17. My heart broke for your family when I read this post. I am praying for both you and Mr. Lockwood, each of your children, and the children of God in your congregation in Mexico. Praying that God will comfort you as only He can and heal your wounds, that your faith and the faith of your children will stand strong, and that He will use your children one day to advance His kingdom.
    With love and tears,
    A sister in Christ

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  18. Oh no. I am so so sorry to hear this Jaynee. Will pray for you. You are loved, dear friend.

    Love,
    Jessica Argon

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  19. Jaynee, how are you and the children dealing with this crisis? Is there anything we can do for you besides pray? Please let us know how we can help. We love y'all!

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  20. You will be ok. I'm so sorry for what you are going through, and it must be very very hard. But your family is strong! And you will make it. After everything you have done, I hope the next phase, whatever it is, will be good and satisfying.

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  21. so sorry to hear this. will be praying for you and your family as you go through this difficult transition. praying for peace, wisdom and guidance for you and Daniel.

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  22. I am so very sorry. Please know that I am praying for you all.

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  23. Praying for you all .......God knows it all....just put it into his hands :)

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  24. We will be praying for you.

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  25. I have read your blog for years, and I don't believe I have ever commented. I think of your family though we have never met. Having said that, I am so sorry to hear this. Of course I do not know the details, but my heart breaks. I don't think that anything I say will help at this point, but please know that I will surely be praying for God's mercy and grace for both of you, and healing of your family.

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  26. You don't know me, Janie, but I've read your blog for years. I love you, Daniel, and your whole family. I'm a pastor's wife, too. Let me just say that we have a mean old devil. He strikes hard at ministers and their wives and families in an effort to quench the spread of the Gospel. I'm just so saddened for all of you, because you have such a wonderful ministry. I am praying for your hearts, that you can find your way through this valley with each other and with God. He's the great Comforter and He will also guide your steps. Love you.

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  27. We are praying for your family.

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  28. My prayers are with you all.

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  29. We will be praying for you. Hang in there and let God work.

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  30. We are praying for you, for Daniel and your whole family. We love you all and we ask God's blessings upon you as we remember the words of Isaiah 61:1-5. Please let us know (when you are ready) where you end up moving to and any other concerns we can pray about for you. We want to be a blessing to you all in this difficult time. The Price Family

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  31. Oh Jaynee, ((hugs)) and prayers for you and the family.

    love,
    Fontaine

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  32. ((HUGS)) Jaynee. I know I don't comment very often, but I still read here & pray for you all. Please know you will all be in my prayers during this difficult time.
    Blessings
    Renata

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  33. Jaynee I have been following your blog from the very beginning and it has meant so much to me and helped me in my journey... Whatever is going on know that you are in my prayers and Daniel too..We will be praying for you precious family. love from CAtherine (Australia)

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  34. Your family will be in our continual prayers... Healing, protection & restoration is what we cry out to God for on your behalf.

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  35. My heart, thoughts, and prayers are with you all, Jaynee. I wish I could give you a big hug.

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  36. Jaynee and family. You do not know me, but I follow your blog and enjoy seeing how the Lord is working through you in Mexico. I just wanted you to know I am so sorry to hear about the hardship your family is facing. I have thought of you and your family so many times since your last post. I am praying for you and your family despite whatever is going on. None of us are exempt from evil in this world and it is not our job to point fingers. It is our job as Christians to stand in the gap and be blessing not a burden. I have a chronic illness and I follow a Christian blog that has daily devotional. I read today's devotional and immediately thought of you. I am going to try to send a link otherwise just go to Rest Ministries and you will see the devotional there. It is titled God Will Revive Our Hearts After Hard Seasons. Please remember during this time you have people praying for you and your family and remember God is good ALL THE TIME! Blessings - Kristy

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  37. God never fails. He never leaves. He never forsakes. Praying for you during this incredibly difficult time.

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  38. We are praying for you all. May God grant grace for this time of great need. May true repentance and daily turning to Him draw you all nearer to Him. For that is what matters.

    Cindy in Canada

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  39. God WILL make beauty from ashes, you are all in my prayers, and in my heart,...and will stay there...

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  40. Jaynee,
    We love you and are praying for your dear family and church.

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  41. We have been praying for you all.

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  43. When God closes a door, he always opens another window. The end to Mexico, but lots of hope for moving back home, lots of experiences to be remembered. Hugs to you and your family as you transition!

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  44. Sending you our love and prayers during this difficult time. Never forget you are not alone. No matter what our Savior will carry you through!

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  45. I have been following your blog and praying for your family for years. You have been such an encouragement and blessing to me and many others. I am so sorry for what is happening with your family. I am praying for you, Daniel, your beautiful children, and your church. I hope you update us when you transition so we know how you all are and how to pray. Heartbroken with you.

    In Him,
    Tracy

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  46. Praying for you and your family!!!

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  47. Praying for your whole family. May you know that so many are lifting you up in prayer.

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  48. Our hearts broke reading this. We will be praying. We are so sorry.

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  49. Dear Daniel and Jayne, thank you for posting this news though it must be painful beyond words to be passing through this dark valley and to also have to announce it publicly. My heart is broken for each of you and my husband and I will be praying earnestly for the lords gracious and restoring work to be done in your hearts, marriage and family. In our bible study last night we looked at Luke 5 and noticed how in so many cases in Jesus' ministry, a persons greatest, darkest and most sorrowful trial was miraculously transformed into their greatest spiritual blessing. I pray that this will be the case for your family.

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  50. Dear Lockwood family, Thank you for being brave and courageous and asking for prayer. May you feel the prayers of your family in Christ all over this world as we stand with you during this very challenging season. I keep thinking of the verse that says God binds up the broken-hearted and heals all their wounds when I pray for all of you. Your blog has encouraged and convicted me many times and I thank God for your service to our Faithful Savior. As you and your church transitions, may all involved know God's amazing grace and abundant mercy is my continued prayer.

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  51. Daniel and Jayne, If it is not your choice to leave the church in Mexico, I am so sorry you have to go. There is forgiveness and I do not think one should have to leave their life's calling over one sin. Sin is sin no matter how big or small. I have been praying for your family the past hour or so and this story came to mind. I would like to share it with you. I had a job I loved with co-workers who were the best. One day out the blue I was let go. I did not see it coming. I had been there for years. I was crushed. The next job I did not love so much and took a huge pay cut. I was only there for 14 months because I became a SAHM when our first child was born. It was a no brainer to leave that job. My husband and I understood the heartbreak of loosing my loveable job was God protecting my family. If I would have had to quit my loveable job to stay home there would have been may days I would have questioned if I had done the right thing. God's protection is over your family and your Mexican church family as you all go through this transition.

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  52. I, too, have followed for a long time and loved to see a post from you in my inbox. I am so sad for each of you, but, I believe, too, that God is almighty, and He has a perfect plan in all of this. There is NO condemnation or judging coming from me, just a heart full of love and care, and more hatred for the old devil and his mean and crafty ways. As someone said earlier, if it works out and you feel up to it, we sure would love to hear from you again, telling us how God is leading. Meanwhile, love and prayers for you....

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  53. I am so sorry. I will be praying for your family.

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  54. The other commenters have spoken so beautifully. Lifting prayers to the Lord to surround your family with love and peace, and guide you into the future. He is faithful and His ways perfect.

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  55. Jaynee, I have followed your blog for years. My prayers are with you. Please remember that you are a wonderful and loving person.
    Blessings, Dawn

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  56. I know this could not have been an easy thing to share. I know each of you are hurting and I hurt along side of you. We all make mistakes and as you know, their is forgiveness. Praying for each of you and your family.

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  57. I have never commented but have enjoyed your blog for a long time. I am so sorry but please remember-we are exactly where we are suppose to be. God makes no mistakes. We as humans surely do. It is obvious to others if not to you, your faith will carry you through. God bless all of you and I pray the sun will shine for you very soon.

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  58. Praying for you guys and grieving. N and M

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  59. I probably have never posted here before but I was thinking of your family & your ministry in Mexico today. I came here to read the most recent encouraging developments in your life. I AM encouraged that with whatever it is that is going on in your life that you still cling to the Lover of our Souls, Our Father. I do not care to speculate. I only care to tell you that I also will pray for you. I also feel I should say, there is a reason that you know nothing about right now, that you are being moved back to the States. I am from Redding, CA & that is one reason I have followed your blog however sporadically. Your family has accomplished many life changing things in the lives of those you served in Mexico & in the lives of those you have never even met. Please do not be forever discouraged. I KNOW that God has a plan for your healing & redemption. Feel your pain. Cry your tears. And just know...Jesus.

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  60. Thank you for sharing and being open with us. Praying for you. I cant take away your pain but I belong to the One who can. <3

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  61. We serve an amazing God who can heal all wounds. I've been blessed by your testimony of faithfulness over the years and will continue to keep you, your husband, and your children in my prayers. Now, perhaps more than ever, you have the opportunity to be a witness and example of love and forgiveness.

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  62. I also am an unknown fellow laborer in Christ, who happened upon your blog years ago from a mom on a homeschool website. We are involved in a church that is "charging those gates of hell" (very evangelical, seeing people come to Christ and overcoming addictions, sin, etc.) and have seen some "moral failures." When people are at the front lines of ministry they have a huge target on their back. We hurt for you, and will pray for your family. But I want to leave you with encouragement. Grace is a wonderful thing to be intimately thankful for. As Corrie Ten Boom said, "There is no deeper pit than Jesus's love is not deeper still." Sometimes we cannot truly understand the depth of the LORD's love until we understand the depth of our own depravity. We will pray for your metamophosis toward preaching the gospel from the point of view of Matthew the tax collector, or Mary, who loved much because she was forgiven much. There is incredible hope and healing ahead, if you trust Him and cling to His promises.

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  63. Familia Lockwood, lamento mucho la situación por la que están atravesando, no es nada fácil ser misioneros en otro país, con otro idioma, con otras costumbres, tratar con diferentes personas de diferente personalidad y carácter, sin embargo Dios ha trabajado a través de ustedes llevando esperanza a los desamparados. El enemigo ha querido destruir su familia, no lo dejen, hoy mas que nunca, recuerden que hay esperanza en Dios, hay perdón en Dios y hay Restauración en Dios, la Gracia y Misericordia de Dios es mas grande de lo que imaginamos.

    Aunque no les conozco personalmente, le he seguido a través de su blog y hoy quiero darles las gracias por invertir su amor, tiempo y aun sus finanzas para mi gente y mi país.

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  64. Familia Lockwood, lamento mucho la situación que están enfrentado. No es facil ser misioneros en un país que no es el tuyo, con diferentes costumbres, diferente idioma, diferentes personalidades y carácter, Sin embargo, Dios les ha usado en gran manera, Dios ha usado sus vidas para llevar esperanza al desamparado, alegría al triste, alimento a los necesitados, ahora, el enemigo quiere destruirles, pero no, no lo dejen, hoy mas que nunca tienen que creer en el Perdón, Misericordia, Gracia y el infinito amor de Dios, aún hay esperanza en Cristo.


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  65. I am so very sorry. I am a born again believer as well. A loving wife and mother of many children and I feel your pain due to a similiar situation although different (not sure of yours and do not need to know). Please know you are loved. Please PLEASE find counsel on your own as well so that you can fully heal. This is a very long road... But, I can assure you, it can be healed but the trust will take a very long time. It is OK to be upset and angry... This is not sin. This is very normal. Praying for you many times a day as the first parts are very very hard to understand!

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  66. Hnos Lockwood soy Zulema con Z jeje desde Rosarito..ultimamente he pensado en ustedes, así que dedique a buscar su bloq, y es triste encontrarme con estas noticias, y no tengo mas que decirles ANIMO y que a los hijos de Dios todas las cosas son para bien. Yo soy testigo de las dificultades que tuvieron que pasar al principio y usted Hna ya sido un gran ejemplo para mi en muchos aspectos.. La admiro como madre, esposa y sobre todo como una gran sierva de Dios..siempre tendrán un lugar especial en mi corazon.. Dios los bendiga en la nueva etapa de su vida a usted y toda la familia. Saludos y un fuerte abrazo de parte de mi familia..

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  67. Hnos Lockwood soy Zulema con Z jejeje y hace tiempo que he pensado en ustedes asi que me dedique a buscar su bloq, y es triste encontrarme con estas noticias, y no tengo mas que decirles que ANIMO, y que a los hijos de Dios todas las cosas son para bien, tal vez en este momento no lo comprendemos pero Dios tiene un plan perfecto para ustedes, yo fui testigo de las dificultades que tuvieron al principio, pero al paso del tiempo Dios los ha usado grandemente, así que No ha sido en vano. Hermana usted ha sido un gran ejemplo para mi en muchos aspectos de mi vida y la admiro y respeto como madre, esposa y sobre todo como una gran sierva de Dios. Reciban saludos y un gran abrazo de parte de mia y de mi familia..Dios les bendiga en esta nueva etapa de su vida a usted y su familia..siempre ocuparan un lugar especial en mi corazon..estaré orando por ustedes.

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  68. you have 12 cute children and they all look really good and quiet but i have 11 boys and 3 girls Jamie (17) Zachary (16) Landon (15) Layla (13) Richard (12) Noah (10) Luke (9) Katy (8) Samuel (7) Dianna (6) Josiah (5) Jed (4) Jordyn (3) Isiah (1) in total that's 14 kids we live in taxes and their really loud and messy the people who lives next door to us (their black) and they think we're racist which where not they think that because my boys hair are all buzz cuts and my husband looks a little racist but where not ok now i try letting the boys hair grow out but they still wont let my little boys and girls come anywhere near their kids especially when my kids are with their big brothers. will i just wanna know do you keep all your kids so good and under control like keeping your boys from fighting each other and all of them from running around the house??? please reply i need some help with my kids and to stop people from thing where racist thank you and god bless you and you kids for the rest of 2014

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