....against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand." Eph. 6:12-13
*SEE POST BELOW FOR INFORMATION ON THE ACCIDENT
It was a year ago in May when the Lord held me like He is holding me now.
It was a year ago in May when I could not sleep nor eat and could only pray.
It was a year ago in May when I wrote entries here on this blog in the late hours of the night/wee hours of the morning as my thoughts were so clear and the day ahead would be so full.
And tonight, I remember it all so clearly...it's amazing to me that it's been a year already. And tonight, just when I need it most, the grace of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ is holding me like He did then.
First, I thank you so much for those of you who have stood by Daniel and the children and I through prayer, especially over the past several days. We are in a spiritual battle. And one of the powerful weapons of our warfare is prayer (Eph. 6:18). How comforting it has been to me to know that when Daniel and I can't be on our knees, there may be someone else there for us. And we have seen the Lord work miracles again and again through prayer.
It is in much love that I say what I am going to say next. As many of you know, we have had a eventful past few months with all the complications in my pregnancy and premature birth of Samuel. And yes, I very well understand the weariness, hormonal changes, recovery of child birth/c-sections...12 times over :) When Daniel had to leave suddenly, I did have a bad attitude about the situation. I was being selfish; I was not trusting in the Lord like I should; Satan did tempt me and I did fail. In fact, this week, the Lord has brought many sins in my life to my attention. And I rejoice in knowing Him and His forgivness so readily available to those who turn to Him.
This week has been one of much spiritual battle for both Daniel and I. This I know...God wants us down in Cd. Insurgentes, Baja California Sur, Mexico....Satan DOES NOT. We are on his turf. The gospel has never come to this area of the world...these dears souls are lost and have never heard the Truth...and they are led by Satan...captives to him. And Jesus Christ wants to set them free. And while I don't know why God has chosen to use man to accomplish His plans, He has. And He wants us down there.
And there has and will be WAR. We have seen it and know it well.
The best part is, Satan CAN'T/WILL NOT win. Jesus Christ is the VICTOR and the victory is ours through FAITH.
I share this because a couple posts ago, I just touched on this. I shared just a bit how I had been feeling and how the Lord used my husband to strengthen, encourage, protect, and point me back to my Saviour. And my strenghth was renewed! Yes, sleep is good; yes, I have now 12 beautiful precious children in my care (and I'm so glad the Lord loves and cares for them more than I even do). But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
There will be times when I can physically rest. There will be times when I cannot. The Lord knows this. And man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God!
I KNOW God wanted Daniel and Joel to go to Mexico this week. And I KNOW that God knows I just had our little Samuel who is in the NICU and I KNOW God knows that I would need to be home this week caring for our other 11 children who I pray each day will grow up to know, love, and serve the Lord and make war themselves for His kingdom.
The Lord did renew my strenghth. Not through naps but through prayer...through waiting on Him. Through praying and not letting go until the Lord gave me that peace I needed.
His grace is sufficient! He will not give me more than I can bear. I KNOW in whom I have believed and He is able to keep that which I've commited unto Him against that Day.
When I posted and shared a bit of my heart on this, I felt many did not understand. I am use to getting unkind comments here at times, but many of these comments I got I am sure were made with good intentions.
I share much of what I do here not only to keep the blog updated for those that read about our family/ministry, but it is like a journal that I want to share with my children some day. I want them to know and remember the wonderful works of our great God that He continues to do TODAY...in OUR lives.
Just about an hour before Daniel and Joel's accident, I was burdened like I have not been since Daniel's illness last May. My children and I were sitting around the table eating supper when I had such a feeling of heaviness/fear/anxiety come upon me that I could hardly stand up. I told Timothy to pass out the cookies I had made and to help everyone get their chores done and then to watch a video until Mommy came back (Sheffey, btw, is a wonderful film!).
I went to my room, fell on my knees and wept and cried unto the Lord. It was at least 40 minutes until I felt I could stop praying. And I rose up with a peace I cannot describe.
Just moments later, Daniel and Joel were in the accident. I shared this with Daniel tonight and he said, "Jaynee, the Lord prompted you to pray...to interceed. Always, always obey when He does."
We are in a battle...and the weapons we have are...Truth, righteousness (through Jesus Christ), the gospel of peace, faith, salvation, the sword of the spirit...the Word of God, prayer. Eph. 6:14-18
For those who have prayed and encouraged us through emails, comments, phone calls, and mail, may the Lord bless you as you have blessed us in our trials. I know many of you have written or contacted us and I haven't been able to reply. I love to write back to people...my children and I love writing letter and thank you's...it's just that right now, we are unable to due to the current circumstances. But know we love you and appreciate you so much.
The Lord is SO good and faithful. Praise His Wonderful Name! Jesus is the sweetest name I know!