Sharing my Heart Tonight About it All

While at the hospital yesterday, Daniel talked with two of my doctors about my "plumbing" issues :). They were concerned and sent Daniel home with a diuretic for me to take with the instructions to bring me straight back to the hospital if I got any worse or didn't improve by morning. The doctor called yesterday evening to see how things were "going" :).

Several trips and 5 liters later, I felt like a new person! :) And we learned that a liter of water weighs exactly 1 kilogram or 2.252 lbs. We just got off the phone again with the doctor tonight, and he was happy. He encouraged me to eat and drink well...a banana a day to keep up my potassium; fresh fruits and veggies; protein; and to stay well hydrated. If I continue to feel better, then I will go back down on Thursday to get my stitches out and to get checked.

I'm up walking and Hna. Tola made the most delicious chicken-vegetable and rice soup which was the perfect thing to finally perk my appetite! For a sweet tooth like me, it's been so weird not wanting to eat candy. (Don't worry, Joel...I'm sure it won't last long :). )

Whatever they did inside me sure hurts a lot more than my c-sections ever did! But it is amazing how I feel today versus how I felt last week. The Lord is SO good and how wonderfully our Creator made our bodies! Someday we will have new bodies too...glorious bodies like our Lord! Isn't He just wonderful!!

To answer a couple of questions that we've been asked...
The hospital (Central de Especialidades Medicas, La Paz), doctors, and nurses who attended me were wonderful! I was at the best hospital in our entire state; it is the same hospital where Daniel went to in May 2008 when he had been told he had gallbladder cancer (which he didn't!!).
The hospital is clean and has updated equipment. The doctors are all specialists in their fields and the level of care they gave me was so caring, professional, and I felt so safe. They took so much time with me, explained everything so well, and were there to answer any questions I had. Before we left, my main doctor gave us his cell phone and encouraged us to call if we had any questions or concerns at anytime...day or night. And he's called our house the past two nights just to check on me.
The nurses were so helpful and sweet. When I first got up to walk, I just had on my socks and the nurse ran to get me a comfy pair of new slippers. They were bright white...for the first hour I had them at least :). Daniel and I always step on eachother's feet.
The night I was so grave they were so very concerned. They stood around my bed watching me and caring for me for hours. They had one nurse sitting there the entire night long just to watch me and my vitals.
The accommodations were so nice too! Daniel was able to be with me the entire time. We had a private room, I had a very comfortable adjustable bed and Daniel had a nice comfortable couch right next to me. There was a large bathroom with shower in the room and we had phone and Internet.

I know many were concerned that first night I was hurting so badly and they had not given me any pain medication. I was concerned too :) Ha! It was by far the worst thing I have ever felt in my life. A day or so after I had stabilized, the doctors came in to explain things and we finally understood why the first night was so hard. They really were not sure if I was going to make it. I had lost so much blood and my blood pressure was so low and so many other things they were concentrating fully on keeping me alive. They were concerned that another drug in my system just might push an extremely delicate situation over the edge.
But the best part is that night, Daniel asked you all to pray for me. I didn't even know it, but I do remember at one point feeling like I just could not take it anymore (not sure what I would have done about it...I don't think I could have really gone anywhere :) ) and I was trying to pray and it just hurt too much to pray and I called Daniel over and asked him to please pray for the pain. I remember him holding my hand and I remember him starting to pray. I don't remember the prayer...Daniel said as soon as he finished, I fell asleep for about a half an hour. Isn't the Lord so good? And when I think of how I felt that night and then imagine all Jesus suffered for me...not for anything He had done, but for all that I have done...and HE suffered so He could give me all that He deserved and as He took all that I deserved...Oh, what a loving, amazing Friend! So my pain is a reminder to me of His pain; I just want to be counted worthy to suffer for Him too.

You know, the Lord's hand was so clearly seen through each step we took. Since it was going to be a simple d and c, I just wanted to go to the small hospital in the next town over from us with my local doctor. It was so much closer, less expensive, and I didn't see the need to go to the better hospital for something so routine. But God knew. And Daniel didn't want me to go to the hospital here in town. He insisted we go to La Paz and I'm so glad I wasn't stubborn enough to change his mind (he says there wasn't a chance I could have anyways :) ), for I don't think I would be here typing this right now if I had.

I appreciate so much the love, concern and prayers for my heart (emotionally) knowing that yes, our little Samuel will always be our baby...our last child. You are all so thoughtful and caring to think of me and pray for not only physical healing but for my heart as well and I thank you so much.
But I want to give testimony to one of the first things I shared with Daniel once I was coherent enough to have a conversation. For the last couple of years, as I have gotten older, I knew that one day, we would have our last. And when I would think of it, it would always give a twinge of pain to my heart. After we lost this last pregnancy, I felt the Lord's closeness like never before as I grieved. And then, the past month, every time I looked at Samuel, I felt the Lord telling me that he was going to be my last. And surprisingly to me, rather than that twinge of sadness, I felt complete peace. It was as if the Lord specially prepared my heart ahead of time.
I have always loved having babies. From our first night of marriage until now, we have always wanted to let the Lord give us however many children He wanted us to have. And we prayed many, many times as to that decision and just wanted to follow Him as He led us. And we have just the children He gave to us.
I always wanted to have many, many children...it wasn't having a bunch of children that worried me when I was young; I always had to ask Him to help me be content if wanted me to only have 1 or 2 or none :). As years went on, that worry soon was a distant memory as our children came so close together. And now, at 37, we have finished that blessed stage of life. And we have 12...and I love them all so much and thank the Lord each day for giving me Timothy, Elijah, Rebekah, Benjamin, Abigail, Isaiah, Josiah, Noah, Susannah, Nehemiah, Eliseo, and Samuel...and for their most handsome, wonderful daddy too! I am sooo very blessed. And I couldn't be happier! Well, maybe I will be tomorrow...because every day with Jesus is sweeter than the day before.
Do you know Him? Is He your Jesus? He wants to be so badly! If you don't know Him and you want to, we'd love to tell you how He can be yours and you can be His very own. Are you lonely, hurting, lost, unloved? He understands for He suffered all those things too.

Maybe you don't have a family who loves you or one to love...He wants to make you part of HIS family! And just to be His own child! And to have brothers and sisters in Christ who become so dear to you.
One of the sweetest parts of this trial has been feeling so loved by my Lord and so loved by my brothers and sisters in Christ.
For years and countless times, we've been asked, "How many children are you going to have?" I've never had a "number". But you can ask me now...the Lord gave us 12! We've got the 3 big boys, the 3 middle boys, the 3 little boys, and the 3 girls. Just perfect! And there is nothing better than a family...loving, playing, working, sharing, caring. God is SO faithful and SO good!

PS- Daniel just read my post and said, "Jaynee, you have a lot of "so's" in there." :) Ha! SO I do :)