Daniel was able to be in my room this morning when Dr. Van Kirk came by to see me. Seeing as how complicated the pregnancy is and how much bleeding I've had, the doctor wants me to stay here until I deliver. He said he would be surprised
if I did not deliver in the next 1-3 weeks. He thinks something most likely will happen and I'll need to be rushed into surgery.
The advantage of me staying here is that if/when something does happen, I'm right here and they can immediately start care. The chance of a severe life threatening hemorrhage is so high that with my history, he doesn't think it would be wise to let me go back home. He's hoping that being here on bed rest will give the baby as much time as possible inside me. Everyday, I wake up and thank the Lord for keeping our little boy safe yet another day/night.
While it is so hard to be away from the children and feel so helpless here at times, I know this is best for baby and I. Daniel and I had been praying for wisdom and the Lord's direction so much the last couple of days, and we know He's answered. And while each day seems so long, I also know that Lord willing, I will soon look back at this time and it won't seem so bad :)
I was writing a sweet friend of mine tonight and telling her how much I miss the children and when I call home and hear them fussing or crying or having whatever little problem, I long to fix whatever is wrong. I was feeling a bit frustrated being here and unable to do what I do/have done for the past 13+ years...be a help meet to Daniel and care for my children and home. As I was thinking about this, the Lord pressed something upon my heart. He has me right here in the hospital now...and while I can't "do, do, do" as normal, I can do what I sadly often neglect and that is "pray, pray, pray". And that is what I want to spend time doing here...when my heart longs to be at home, I want to bring each one of my loved ones before the Lord.
Daniel surprised me and brought up all the children to see me tonight. :) Yea! It was so much wonderful to see them all and so sad when they had to leave. But they promised to come back sometime ;) We want to keep the children together and at home as much as possible during this waiting time. We want to keep things as stable and normal as possible for them. So we're working on modifying their schedule a bit so they can continue on each day with their school, chores, and free time as always. I'm going to put together their daily lessons/check sheets for them to follow and with some help from Daddy, they should do just great!
I was just going through my notebook and I still have several questions you've all asked that I haven't answered. So I'll work on an "answers" post today and tomorrow...since I have a bit more time on my hands than normal :)
I'm also enjoying working on some Scripture memory during the day. The past few years, my time of memorizing God's Word has been not what I desire. I learn many verses as I teach passages to the children, but I have wanted to have a faithful time of memorization each day myself and just haven't don't it consistently. So I'm working on Psalms 119 right now...and while little "Justin Other" isn't getting to hear all the voices of his brothers/sisters right now, he gets to hear mommy recite God's Word over and over :)
" It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes"